The weekend

This weekend wasn’t the best. Let’s see…Her bra wasn’t clean so she asked me to go do the wash and take the books back to the library. Not a problem, I had a good time with The Boy. She was in a bad mood right when she woke up. She got some new meds from the Dr on Wed. She didn’t take any on Thursday to see what would happen I know why she didn’t take them, but not going to go into that. I could tell that she didn’t take them and I did say something. That was a mistake. She got upset because I could tell or something. Anyway, She was yelling at me Sat morning for different things, not really sure what. I was glad to get out so Loan didn’t have to hear her. Well, I thought when we got back she would be in a better mood, wrong again. Right as I got up the stairs from bringing the wash in, she started yelling again. Again, I’m not sure what I did, but to her, it was bad and she was swearing and calling names. Logan does not need to hear that, I told her to keep her voice down so he couldn’t hear it, but she didn’t listen. After a while, she fell asleep on the bed. I was happy about that. Logan and I were able to get some quiet time.

 

Sunday was ok, nothing bad happened thankfully.

 

We hopefully will get the rebate check today. We are looking forward to that. I’m sure once I get what I want, It’ll come up in the future and I’ll be made to feel guilty and take it back…yet again for the millionth time. I really hope not though, as usual. She’ll bitch about it sometime, even though she is getting a camera.

WTF!!!

I don’t believe this! I go out to go to work, and I find a parking ticket on our car! I have told Melissa many time that we should not be parking on the street. I said that she should talk to one of the neighbors as to how they park there w/o getting a ticket. She parks there overnight and we get a ticket. I haven’t even used the car for about a week. Now, It’s my fault!!! WTF!!! How is it my fault? I knew this was going to happen. I’m so pissed!

Don't remember if I posted about this, but 1 day after I got it I had to take it back! Sucks so much ass. I had already put my digital life on it and I lost everything again! This has been, oh about the 5th or 6th time I had to do something like this. When we get our rebate from the Pres, I am getting it back and KEEPING IT!!

I need it. I know that may be hard for others to understand, but I do. It keeps my mind and life in order.

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Melissa is going to church tonight. She is taking Logan. I’m going to be working otherwise I’d have Logan stay home with me. Out of all the stuff she has seen, she still thinks there is a god. I don’t understand it. I think the main reason is because her friend invited her and she doesn’t have any other friends that she hangs out with. That’s why she is going. I really don’t like it, but… She has done this thing before, and when she has gotten home, she is brain washed into thinking I’m a bad person and what I believe is wrong, yet if I say something to her about what she believes and that IT is wrong, she’ll blow up and want me to leave because “I can’t accept what she believes”. HELLO!?! WTF are you doing to me? Are you not doing the same thing? Ug…

Another thing

The Christian doesn’t really use swear words. What are swear words really? The words themselves are not “bad” it is the context of the sentence that makes the word good or bad. So really any word used in vein can be considered a “bad” or swear word. So if he says when he is pissed Mother Smucker. Even if it is not the work Fucker, to me it is still swearing, right? What to you think?

Again today.

I have an eBook called Theory of Everything by Stephen Hawking. He is a great scientist and thinker. The book is great so far. I offered to let the Christian here read it to see what he said. In short he said that S.H. was a joke and all the stuff he says is fantasy. The Christian is a nice guy, but he should keep that to himself. I know there is freedom to say that, but it does offend me and if he hears some of the things that I think, he would be pissed that I said them. Ug... one of these days I'm going to say something and we'll see what happens.

Earthday

First, HAPPY EARTHDAY!!

 

A guy here at work (I’ll not say the name M.C.) is a Christian and doesn’t believe we should be doing anything to help the Earth. We make a lot of prints and he would always say "God still knows how to make trees".

 

His son was born with half a heart and he says that he believes in medicine, and will take him to the right place and get him the right meds to help him. He says that he's not one of these Christians that sit back and just pray for his son to get better. Ok, so then why turn around and do it to the Earth. Why not do what you can to help keep the Earth healthy? Why not do what can be done to help out even just a little? If everyone helps a little it'll turn into a lot.

first post with it. Today was a pain in the ass! We had to do so much running around. Melissa may not be able to get her license because she cannot see the eye chart. I took half day because I needed to get mine and she was very upset. Turns out that I needed my birth certificate so I needed to go to Harrisburg. Ug, that was a pain, to shorten it up, the day sucked.

Got it...

Well, she got it for me. Very cool, I don’t know where to start. When we get out rebate, she wants to buy a PS3. They are very cool, but I’m thinking a Wii. I didn’t think of it then so I’ll run it by her and see what she thinks. She also wants to get her camera. All fine with me.

 

Wow....

She dropped a bomb on me last night… a good one. She is going to go to Target and get a replacement for the item that I took back! I am speechless. I cannot believe that she is doing this. She hasn’t gone yet, so it could change…. And there is a very good possibility that I will have to take it back again for some reason… hopefully not!

 

Nice day

Today was a good day. We got up and went to the Dollar General store to look around. I got a pack of playing cards. Then we went to the library and got some books. Then we went to my mom's to do wash. The weather is great! Nice and not too hot/cold. I love days like this.

Mouse

I can’t wait to get my iPod back!!! Anyway, the cat found the mouse and is chasing it in the apartment. Melissa is freaking out and Logan is also trying to look for it. He wants to keep it. ;-) Can’t keep it, but hopefully the cat will find it and dispose of it. I’ll have to look for other holes around the house and try to fill them. I can’t do anything if it is in the ceiling. I’ll have to try to fill the holes under the sink. I don’t remember if I got them all or not. I’m sure I’ll be asked to do something when I go home for lunch. Melisa isn’t going to want to do anything now. She’ll be wearing her shoes all the time now.

 

Tired of this

I’m really getting tired of this stupid shit she gets pissed at. She tried to hook up the game system for the boy and was unable to unhook the TV and gets really pissed at me. She is blaming it on me that I put it on too tight. I really hate this. I don’t know how much more I can take. I have put up with this kind of crap for over 8 years.

 

The next night

Last night wasn’t bad. My mom too the boy for a little and we got to go to dinner. We had to use some of rent to eat, but I’m going to be working tonight so I’ll make the money back. We went to a Greek diner down the road. There food there is very good, well the food that we have eaten so far. I like the Gyros and she had Broasted Chicken. I had a bite of it, I thought it was very good also. When we got back, my mom had called. She stopped by to drop off the boy and we were not there. I wasn’t expecting her to drop him off until at least 8pm and it was only around 6:30. Well, I called and she dropped him off. He wasn’t that bad tonight. He put up a fuss when we told him to go to bed, but he eventually laid down and fell asleep. I had some work to do that I got finished. Hopefully the problem is fixed. I don’t need to have 2 clients to work for right now, 1 is enough.

Bad Day

Yesterday was a very bad day, after 3pm. Melissa wasn’t feeling good and I left work @ 3pm so she could rest. Well after I got home, it went down hill. She was asking for meds to help her get better. Well, she wasn’t doing that bad right when I got home. Logan was playing his game and she was making things with those iron beads that melt together, coasters and stuff. I was trying to think of a way to get her the meds. She wanted Sudafed. I really didn’t want to go work at Steves, I wanted to stay home and watch Logan and relax a little, like I like to do after work (never really happens though). So it gets to be about 5ish and I decided to go to my parents to get Nyquil for Melissa. I called and my dad said that they had some Dayquil and Nyquil. I had to take some mail to them anyway. I went over and they just had Nyquil, I thought that that would be good. I was wrong. I got home and she bitched because I didn’t think to call her because they didn’t have Dayquil. How the hell was I supposed to know to call her about that? Turns out that she was frustrated because she thought that since I was taking long (I was just talking with them) that they gave me money to get meds AND to go get BK. Are you kidding me?! She was pissed, very pissed. Now, she said something about me calling Steve to work for him to get meds, I really didn’t want to and I made the mistake of saying that. Well that just pissed her off more. She started bringing crap up that has nothing to do with the problem at hand. So after a while, I just didn’t want to her the bitching, I asked if she did want me to call him. She would have to stay with Logan (she actually said that I could take him along… to a indoor shooting range! WTF!) and I thought I would ask to make sure. Well, that pissed her off. Me asking! She said, why do you have to run everything by me?! By this time, I was just about to lose it. She was yelling and screaming, all with Logan in the room. So after a little, I finally called Steve and went down. I was hoping after the hour I was there, she would cool off and be ok. Yeah right. I decided to run across the street and go to Giant to get them Sudafed and surprise her with her fav ice cream. I get to the door in our apt and start walking up the stairs. I hear “Please don’t tell me you got it already!”. Great, now what did I do wrong. I gave her the meds and she gets pissed again! After I run to get it for her thinking that she would be upset if I didn’t come back with it. I got Sudafed Cough and Cold, thinking that would be fine, wrong again! Melissa also told Logan that I would be getting a cheeseburger for him when I got back! How the hell was I supposed to know that!!!!! She has one of her fits, starts yelling, goes into the bathroom slams doors. I’m surprised she didn’t break or throw something. Wait she did throw the TV remote. Again Logan seeing and hearing everything. And she wonders why he does what he does. Because he see all this shit. I was so close to taking Logan and leaving. I had my keys in hand and was ready to leave. After a little, I put Logan to bed after she made a grilled cheese and he had some ice cream. She calmed a little and said “sorry”, but right after still thinks I should have known to call. Again, WTF? How the hell was I supposed to know that? What a fucked up night.

 

f@#!ed up!

Kids/people today are completely fucked in the head. This thing with the 8 kids beating a 16yr old girl just to make it on YouTube.com is completely FUCKED UP!!!! If that was my kid that got beat, I would not hesitate in hunting down each one of the kids that did this and take them out. I would gladly go to jail for my kid if that happened. Or, if my kid was one of the kids that did the beating, I would take him right to the cops. Ug…. What is going on!!

 

What I'm working on...

 

Stuff

I’m cold! I’m at work and it is freezing here. The main thing is that my hands are cold. It’s very hard to work with cold hands. I ordered a few things online. I got a staple less stapler and an aluminum wallet. It’s more of a CC holder, but can be used as a wallet also. It’ll be a nice replacement for the Hershey’s Truffle tin that I am using right now. Melissa got a bible online. Not sure what she hopes to get out of it. I guess some people think it’s good reading. It’s just all fictional stories that some people choose to think are fact IMHO. I am a spiritual person (as I’m sure you could tell by the title of the blog). I guess I may not be so much Wiccan as I first thought. I mostly believe in nature and science. Mother Earth is my guide/Goddess. I get energy from her and the other elements. I guess that could be Pagan or Neo-Pagan. Not sure. I am a Reverend. I can legally perform marriages and such. I haven’t done that though. I don’t remember when I was “ordained”. I think I am going to see if I can find out, or just do it again. I would like to be able to put the initials in my name, just because I can. And maybe do some marriages, baptisms a such. I know I don’t believe in a God, like most people, but that doesn’t mean I shouldn’t be able to do those things… right?

Bankrupt

It’s chilly today. The walk to work wasn’t too bad. I was able to get a big bottle of Mtn. Dew this morning. I was happy about that. I got paid yesterday and the money is gone already. Bills and such. Melissa got groceries also. I haven’t see everything that she got, but I don’t think she got enough. There is nothing for lunches for me that I saw. I guess I can make PB&J for lunches, but that’ll get old fast. I hope she got enough. She went to Aldi, I hate that store. I know it may have cheep food, but it’s not the best. I think they do have name brand things, but not many if I remember right. Anyway, Melissa looked into going bankrupt. It’s going to be a little over $1200. We put $300 down to start and then pay the rest when we can. After it is paid, we go to court and do the rest. I hope we can do this and get back on track.