What I'm listening to...

 

 

Ok for now

Melissa ok ok for now. She is still upset, but she is over the
breakdown. She really wants to see her dad and Logan keeps saying that
he misses nan-nan and pap-pap which doesn't make it any easier on her.
We are thinking of just dropping in on him at work sometime. Problem
is getting there.

Chris Gingerich

Family

Melissa is really upset. She has been trying to call her dad but he is not picking up. She has been crying for the past hour. There is nothing we can do. I don't know if he will ever talk to her again.

Been a while

It's been a while since I have blogged. It's Xmas eve. The boy is looking forward to tomorrow. I'm looking forward to putting his gifts under the tree. I got a new ipod touch. It is 2G. I gave my 1G to Melissa. She loves it.

Mystery pic of the day

 

FW: Mystery Pic

Fly Swatter

Memories of AZ

Our car

Our car

We have decided to give our car back. It'll save us money and help us
start to get out of debt. It'll be hard but we'll get by and make it
work.

First iPod touch theme

AZ

Well, as for right now, we are staying here in shifty PA. She called
her dad and he convinced her to stay here. We still have plenty of
time so hopefully that will change.

Pt. 5

The next day I get a call on my cell while I’m at the office. To my delight, it was you asking if I wanted to go to lunch, my choice. “Sure, I would love to.” I said. “I’ll let you know where a little later.”

We meet at the park down the street and are able to walk to the restaurant. “Where are we going?” you ask. “There is a nice Chinese restaurant on the Boardwalk. You like Chinese food?.” You look at me as if that were a dumb question. “Are you kidding, it’s may fav!” “Well, I picked a good place then.” We sit down, and have a great lunch. You got the chicken and broccoli combo and I get chicken fried rice. After lunch, we walk back to the park and there is just enough time to sit on a bench and enjoy a few minutes watching the waves. We sit there holding hands and you lay your head on my shoulder wishing this would never end. Sadly we need to get back to work. We give a hug, both of us not sure if it is too soon for a kiss. Without warning, you take it upon yourself to lean in and kiss me. It was the sweetest thing ever. The world seemed to spin as we stood there. It only lasted less than second, but to us it lasted forever. You look at me and smile, and walk away. No words, just a bright smile. I just stood there. I ended up late returning back from lunch.

4th

Well, it seams like we are going to go to the forth of July down to
Gettysburg. I am very upset by that. I was looking forward to sitting
out on the porch with Melissa and Logan and watching the fireworks
from the fair. I am actually a little pissed.

Better off...

Better off...

Well, looks like her parents want to take the boy on the Forth without
us. That is very upsetting. We want to spend that day with him as
well. I was really looking forward to sitting on the back porch
watching the fireworks from the fairgrounds. If we are invited, then
it is only because they want the boy there. I think we were much
better off in AZ than we are here. I really wish we were still there!!!

Better off...

Better off...

Well, looks like her parents want to take the boy on the Forth without
us. That is very upsetting. We want to spend that day with him as
well. I was really looking forward to sitting on the back porch
watching the fireworks from the fairgrounds. If we are invited, then
it is only because they want the boy there. I think we were much
better off in AZ than we are here. I really wish we were still there!!!

Pt 4

We sit in the diner drinking our Starbucks coffee, eating breakfast and talking, getting to know each other. I take a stab at asking for your phone number so I can call you sometime. You smile and write it on a napkin. “How about we do something tonight?”, I ask. The smile fades away from your face. “I have to work late tonight. I’ll be working until at least midnight.” You say with a sad look. “Well, I can meet you after if you aren’t busy”. As the smile comes back faster then turning on a light and you say “I would like that very much.” “Great, where do you work? I’ll meet you there.” I said.

Pt.3

We decide to walk along the boardwalk and get some breakfast and we stop at one of your favorite places to eat. We sit and talk about things we like to do and what we do for a living while the waitresses bring us some coffee and OJ. This diner just so happened to have a Starbucks built into it, I’m sure that’s not coincidence. As you tell me what you were doing the night before and how you like walking on the beach in the mornings, I notice 3 little beauty marks on your cheek. I mention this to you and you get embarrassed, but I just smile and tell how cute and unique they are. You blush and smile again one of the most beautiful smiles I have ever seen.

Temp today

Today's screen shot

Today's screen shot

Adventure

Well, last night she fell and twisted her ankle. We spent all night in the hospital. We got home about midnight. We were up until about 3 or 4 am... making love. Yes, she did just get out of the hospital and has a hurt ankle but we were in the mood. We did it again today. It was tons of fun. :-) Anyway, she is finding it hard to get around the house on crutches. The boy is at her parents today and tomorrow. He is going to my parents tomorrow night. That will give her a little more time to get used to moving around the house. It was hard giving her a shower not being able to her her stand on her foot. We managed to do it but it took a little while. It is going to be interesting to see how the next few weeks play out. I'm going to have to come home at lunch to make lunch for us so she doesn't have to move around too much unless she is able to. Tomorrow I have to do all the wash and the dishes. They are both piling up and need to be done tomorrow. I really don't feel like doing it, but it needs done.

For her. (Pt. 2)

As the sand squishes up between our toes as we walk along the shore, we look out over the water to see a beautiful sunrise. The brilliant color of deep reds, oranges and yellows shining in your hair as the light wind blows it across your face. The perfect start to a wonderful life together. We can feel the warmth of the sun on our faces and the mist of the water on our skin. The smell of the salt water tickles your nose and you give a cute smile that adds to the brilliance of the sun.

 

For her. (Pt. 1)

I wrote this in an email to her, just because I was thinking of her.

 

So there I was on the edge of the beach, looking for something. Not sure what it was at the time. Wondering aimlessly, I finally saw it. It took a little bit of time before I new. As I approached what I have been looking for, my palms got sweaty and my heart skipped. I got closer and closer still until I was right next to you. My heart was soaring and my mind racing. After so long, and finally finding you. Holding you and feeling the warmth of your touch, I knew I found what I was looking for. You.

 

I Love you.

Today's screen shot

Phone

Well our phone was turned off now also. Melissa is a little pissed.
She tried to take back the DS and the camera, she went to the Target
by the Gallera mall. They only took back the camera. She is using the
money to get a few things for the boy's b-day. She is also going to
get time for one of our cell phones so we have a phone to use. I hope
I can find one of the power cords or the time she got will be a waste
of 30, and she'll be pissed at me. We'll see what happens. I'm going
to keep ahold of this as best as I can. I use it every day and have
ALL of my stuff on here.

Cable TV

Our cable tv was turned off today. We owe about $180 to get it turned
back on. She tried to take back the DS and her camera to Target, but
she was told that she could not return them because they west opened.
That is a bunch of BS! We have done that many times before. I was
going to take this back since that didn't work, but they said that I
couldn't take this back also. Now, I like that I can keep it, but I
have taken many back to Target w/o them saying that they couldn't take
it back because it was opened. I might try to take the DS and camera
back tomorrow only if she asks. Would be nice for her to keep them.

Not tonight

I guess it's me. We haven't made love in a while. I tried to start
something tonight, but she wasn't in the mood. Maybe she is not into
it anymore, or doesn't love me. She says she does. I don't know.

Bed

We got our king size bed today. It is so nice. This is the first king
size bed and I don't think we will ever have a smaller one again
unless we are forced to. We have the tv in our room for now watching
movies. We are watching surf's up.

ipod touch

Movie

We went to see Sex and the City tonight. It wasn't that bad, I might
have enjoyed it. We first went to chick fil a for lunch then to the
movie. The boy stayed at my moms over night, I'm going to go pick him
up in a few min. We are going to be getting a king size bed tomorrow
so that will be very nice.

Nice day

Today was nice. We had a cookout at work, food sucked but it was ok.
We went out to Hosse's for dinner and had a good time. The boy ate for
free which helped. It's late now and I'm tired, night!!!

POD 3

 

POD 2

 

POD 1

 

Elaborate

To elaborate on the last entry, we both took back our toys because there was something wrong with the batteries. She decided to get a different camera and went back to Poloride and I got the same as I had, but they gave me the one w/o software. Not a big deal, I upgraded and now it works great. No problems with the battery that I see so far. I played her DS this morning for a little. The new Mario game is cool. Going to have to play it more often. :-)

DS

I got her a DS. She loves it. Since I go my item, I thought it would be nice to get her this. Here she is with The Boy.

Well...

I got it again. We’ll see if I get to keep it. It seems that the battery runs out fast, well the graphic is showing that. I’ll have to test it. We also got a new printer and a camera and a few games for The Boy.

 

I hate PA

I really hate living here in PA. It is 82 here in my office (and I cannot change the temp) and I and sweating so bad. I never really sweat in AZ. The humidity here sucks!! I need to try to remember to bring my little fan in tomorrow, that  will hopefully help a little bit.

 

Maybe

We'll see what happens. We may be getting the check tomorrow and I may be getting it. She is going to get a camera, Well, she is going to call about the bankruptcy to see what all we need to do. We are hopefully going to go to the circus tomorrow night also, only if we do get the check and can cash or deposit it.

Flock

I just installed Flock to play with. It's neat so far. We'll see if I keep using it.

Back out again.

Looks as if i'm not getting it now, and prolly never will. We are going to use the stimulus check to go bankrupt. That's all fine, but she thinks it's going to change things. I don't think it will. She doesn't see that she do the same thing except does it on little things, mostly online. She get's games, LTD stuff (which BTW was supposed to be paid for with that check, now what?). I'll have to try to ask w/o her flipping out and see what she says.

Life

I don’t know how much longer I will be able to do this. I am getting tired of trying to hold us together. I don’t know if it is truly my fault, or that Her mental problems are at fault. I know that I am not perfect and there are thing that I do that need worked on, but I have done that the best that I can. Yesterday, I was working on getting more Sins 2 things on the computer for Her and I was talking to myself thinking out loud, and she said “I’m glad we are going to counseling, because you are annoying me”. I said, “what did I do?”. She said, your talking to your self, your annoying me. You have no idea how much that hurt. I wasn’t even talking to her, and I was doing something FOR her and I still managed to annoy her. I don’t want to get a divorce. Everyone around us is getting or has gotten one. I don’t want that, but I don’t know if this is going to get worked out. Either way, I’m the one going to get screwed. Even if we find out that Melissa needs more help, I have to pay for it, which is fine IF she gets better. We could end up in more debt worse than now and her not get any better. If we do split, I’ll be hit will all kind of bills and lose ½ of my stuff. She say’s she would never do that, but I think she would. I don’t feel she will be able to take care of Logan by herself. I would go for full custody. She cannot take care of him by herself.

Fun, Fun, Fun...

Tucson, THE Place to live

I have never really cared where I lived before. I almost always felt comfortable anywhere I lived, well not any more. I do keep going on about this, but I am starting to get really depressed about living back here in PA. I do so wish we still lived in AZ. This was a big mistake moving back. Nothing is really different. The only difference is that my parents or Her parents can see The Boy when they want. That is nice for us because we can go out together once and a while, but that’s the only difference. I’m sure in AZ if we really wanted to go out, we could have found someone to watch The Boy. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to go back even to visit, but I can hope and dream. Looking at Tucson in Google Earth just doesn’t satisfy the need to be back.

Drama

Well, we had The Boy in an in-home daycare, but the lady Susan is a nut. She just kept saying that he would hit and call names. He does not do that. I think she has some very bad personal issues that she needs to deal with. He is now back home and we are going to be looking for another daycare.

My Outlook

 

AUTOCAD 2009! :-)

 

The weekend

This weekend wasn’t the best. Let’s see…Her bra wasn’t clean so she asked me to go do the wash and take the books back to the library. Not a problem, I had a good time with The Boy. She was in a bad mood right when she woke up. She got some new meds from the Dr on Wed. She didn’t take any on Thursday to see what would happen I know why she didn’t take them, but not going to go into that. I could tell that she didn’t take them and I did say something. That was a mistake. She got upset because I could tell or something. Anyway, She was yelling at me Sat morning for different things, not really sure what. I was glad to get out so Loan didn’t have to hear her. Well, I thought when we got back she would be in a better mood, wrong again. Right as I got up the stairs from bringing the wash in, she started yelling again. Again, I’m not sure what I did, but to her, it was bad and she was swearing and calling names. Logan does not need to hear that, I told her to keep her voice down so he couldn’t hear it, but she didn’t listen. After a while, she fell asleep on the bed. I was happy about that. Logan and I were able to get some quiet time.

 

Sunday was ok, nothing bad happened thankfully.

 

We hopefully will get the rebate check today. We are looking forward to that. I’m sure once I get what I want, It’ll come up in the future and I’ll be made to feel guilty and take it back…yet again for the millionth time. I really hope not though, as usual. She’ll bitch about it sometime, even though she is getting a camera.

WTF!!!

I don’t believe this! I go out to go to work, and I find a parking ticket on our car! I have told Melissa many time that we should not be parking on the street. I said that she should talk to one of the neighbors as to how they park there w/o getting a ticket. She parks there overnight and we get a ticket. I haven’t even used the car for about a week. Now, It’s my fault!!! WTF!!! How is it my fault? I knew this was going to happen. I’m so pissed!

Don't remember if I posted about this, but 1 day after I got it I had to take it back! Sucks so much ass. I had already put my digital life on it and I lost everything again! This has been, oh about the 5th or 6th time I had to do something like this. When we get our rebate from the Pres, I am getting it back and KEEPING IT!!

I need it. I know that may be hard for others to understand, but I do. It keeps my mind and life in order.

.?.

Melissa is going to church tonight. She is taking Logan. I’m going to be working otherwise I’d have Logan stay home with me. Out of all the stuff she has seen, she still thinks there is a god. I don’t understand it. I think the main reason is because her friend invited her and she doesn’t have any other friends that she hangs out with. That’s why she is going. I really don’t like it, but… She has done this thing before, and when she has gotten home, she is brain washed into thinking I’m a bad person and what I believe is wrong, yet if I say something to her about what she believes and that IT is wrong, she’ll blow up and want me to leave because “I can’t accept what she believes”. HELLO!?! WTF are you doing to me? Are you not doing the same thing? Ug…

Another thing

The Christian doesn’t really use swear words. What are swear words really? The words themselves are not “bad” it is the context of the sentence that makes the word good or bad. So really any word used in vein can be considered a “bad” or swear word. So if he says when he is pissed Mother Smucker. Even if it is not the work Fucker, to me it is still swearing, right? What to you think?

Again today.

I have an eBook called Theory of Everything by Stephen Hawking. He is a great scientist and thinker. The book is great so far. I offered to let the Christian here read it to see what he said. In short he said that S.H. was a joke and all the stuff he says is fantasy. The Christian is a nice guy, but he should keep that to himself. I know there is freedom to say that, but it does offend me and if he hears some of the things that I think, he would be pissed that I said them. Ug... one of these days I'm going to say something and we'll see what happens.

Earthday

First, HAPPY EARTHDAY!!

 

A guy here at work (I’ll not say the name M.C.) is a Christian and doesn’t believe we should be doing anything to help the Earth. We make a lot of prints and he would always say "God still knows how to make trees".

 

His son was born with half a heart and he says that he believes in medicine, and will take him to the right place and get him the right meds to help him. He says that he's not one of these Christians that sit back and just pray for his son to get better. Ok, so then why turn around and do it to the Earth. Why not do what you can to help keep the Earth healthy? Why not do what can be done to help out even just a little? If everyone helps a little it'll turn into a lot.

first post with it. Today was a pain in the ass! We had to do so much running around. Melissa may not be able to get her license because she cannot see the eye chart. I took half day because I needed to get mine and she was very upset. Turns out that I needed my birth certificate so I needed to go to Harrisburg. Ug, that was a pain, to shorten it up, the day sucked.

Got it...

Well, she got it for me. Very cool, I don’t know where to start. When we get out rebate, she wants to buy a PS3. They are very cool, but I’m thinking a Wii. I didn’t think of it then so I’ll run it by her and see what she thinks. She also wants to get her camera. All fine with me.

 

Wow....

She dropped a bomb on me last night… a good one. She is going to go to Target and get a replacement for the item that I took back! I am speechless. I cannot believe that she is doing this. She hasn’t gone yet, so it could change…. And there is a very good possibility that I will have to take it back again for some reason… hopefully not!

 

Nice day

Today was a good day. We got up and went to the Dollar General store to look around. I got a pack of playing cards. Then we went to the library and got some books. Then we went to my mom's to do wash. The weather is great! Nice and not too hot/cold. I love days like this.

Mouse

I can’t wait to get my iPod back!!! Anyway, the cat found the mouse and is chasing it in the apartment. Melissa is freaking out and Logan is also trying to look for it. He wants to keep it. ;-) Can’t keep it, but hopefully the cat will find it and dispose of it. I’ll have to look for other holes around the house and try to fill them. I can’t do anything if it is in the ceiling. I’ll have to try to fill the holes under the sink. I don’t remember if I got them all or not. I’m sure I’ll be asked to do something when I go home for lunch. Melisa isn’t going to want to do anything now. She’ll be wearing her shoes all the time now.

 

Tired of this

I’m really getting tired of this stupid shit she gets pissed at. She tried to hook up the game system for the boy and was unable to unhook the TV and gets really pissed at me. She is blaming it on me that I put it on too tight. I really hate this. I don’t know how much more I can take. I have put up with this kind of crap for over 8 years.

 

The next night

Last night wasn’t bad. My mom too the boy for a little and we got to go to dinner. We had to use some of rent to eat, but I’m going to be working tonight so I’ll make the money back. We went to a Greek diner down the road. There food there is very good, well the food that we have eaten so far. I like the Gyros and she had Broasted Chicken. I had a bite of it, I thought it was very good also. When we got back, my mom had called. She stopped by to drop off the boy and we were not there. I wasn’t expecting her to drop him off until at least 8pm and it was only around 6:30. Well, I called and she dropped him off. He wasn’t that bad tonight. He put up a fuss when we told him to go to bed, but he eventually laid down and fell asleep. I had some work to do that I got finished. Hopefully the problem is fixed. I don’t need to have 2 clients to work for right now, 1 is enough.

Bad Day

Yesterday was a very bad day, after 3pm. Melissa wasn’t feeling good and I left work @ 3pm so she could rest. Well after I got home, it went down hill. She was asking for meds to help her get better. Well, she wasn’t doing that bad right when I got home. Logan was playing his game and she was making things with those iron beads that melt together, coasters and stuff. I was trying to think of a way to get her the meds. She wanted Sudafed. I really didn’t want to go work at Steves, I wanted to stay home and watch Logan and relax a little, like I like to do after work (never really happens though). So it gets to be about 5ish and I decided to go to my parents to get Nyquil for Melissa. I called and my dad said that they had some Dayquil and Nyquil. I had to take some mail to them anyway. I went over and they just had Nyquil, I thought that that would be good. I was wrong. I got home and she bitched because I didn’t think to call her because they didn’t have Dayquil. How the hell was I supposed to know to call her about that? Turns out that she was frustrated because she thought that since I was taking long (I was just talking with them) that they gave me money to get meds AND to go get BK. Are you kidding me?! She was pissed, very pissed. Now, she said something about me calling Steve to work for him to get meds, I really didn’t want to and I made the mistake of saying that. Well that just pissed her off more. She started bringing crap up that has nothing to do with the problem at hand. So after a while, I just didn’t want to her the bitching, I asked if she did want me to call him. She would have to stay with Logan (she actually said that I could take him along… to a indoor shooting range! WTF!) and I thought I would ask to make sure. Well, that pissed her off. Me asking! She said, why do you have to run everything by me?! By this time, I was just about to lose it. She was yelling and screaming, all with Logan in the room. So after a little, I finally called Steve and went down. I was hoping after the hour I was there, she would cool off and be ok. Yeah right. I decided to run across the street and go to Giant to get them Sudafed and surprise her with her fav ice cream. I get to the door in our apt and start walking up the stairs. I hear “Please don’t tell me you got it already!”. Great, now what did I do wrong. I gave her the meds and she gets pissed again! After I run to get it for her thinking that she would be upset if I didn’t come back with it. I got Sudafed Cough and Cold, thinking that would be fine, wrong again! Melissa also told Logan that I would be getting a cheeseburger for him when I got back! How the hell was I supposed to know that!!!!! She has one of her fits, starts yelling, goes into the bathroom slams doors. I’m surprised she didn’t break or throw something. Wait she did throw the TV remote. Again Logan seeing and hearing everything. And she wonders why he does what he does. Because he see all this shit. I was so close to taking Logan and leaving. I had my keys in hand and was ready to leave. After a little, I put Logan to bed after she made a grilled cheese and he had some ice cream. She calmed a little and said “sorry”, but right after still thinks I should have known to call. Again, WTF? How the hell was I supposed to know that? What a fucked up night.

 

f@#!ed up!

Kids/people today are completely fucked in the head. This thing with the 8 kids beating a 16yr old girl just to make it on YouTube.com is completely FUCKED UP!!!! If that was my kid that got beat, I would not hesitate in hunting down each one of the kids that did this and take them out. I would gladly go to jail for my kid if that happened. Or, if my kid was one of the kids that did the beating, I would take him right to the cops. Ug…. What is going on!!

 

What I'm working on...

 

Stuff

I’m cold! I’m at work and it is freezing here. The main thing is that my hands are cold. It’s very hard to work with cold hands. I ordered a few things online. I got a staple less stapler and an aluminum wallet. It’s more of a CC holder, but can be used as a wallet also. It’ll be a nice replacement for the Hershey’s Truffle tin that I am using right now. Melissa got a bible online. Not sure what she hopes to get out of it. I guess some people think it’s good reading. It’s just all fictional stories that some people choose to think are fact IMHO. I am a spiritual person (as I’m sure you could tell by the title of the blog). I guess I may not be so much Wiccan as I first thought. I mostly believe in nature and science. Mother Earth is my guide/Goddess. I get energy from her and the other elements. I guess that could be Pagan or Neo-Pagan. Not sure. I am a Reverend. I can legally perform marriages and such. I haven’t done that though. I don’t remember when I was “ordained”. I think I am going to see if I can find out, or just do it again. I would like to be able to put the initials in my name, just because I can. And maybe do some marriages, baptisms a such. I know I don’t believe in a God, like most people, but that doesn’t mean I shouldn’t be able to do those things… right?

Bankrupt

It’s chilly today. The walk to work wasn’t too bad. I was able to get a big bottle of Mtn. Dew this morning. I was happy about that. I got paid yesterday and the money is gone already. Bills and such. Melissa got groceries also. I haven’t see everything that she got, but I don’t think she got enough. There is nothing for lunches for me that I saw. I guess I can make PB&J for lunches, but that’ll get old fast. I hope she got enough. She went to Aldi, I hate that store. I know it may have cheep food, but it’s not the best. I think they do have name brand things, but not many if I remember right. Anyway, Melissa looked into going bankrupt. It’s going to be a little over $1200. We put $300 down to start and then pay the rest when we can. After it is paid, we go to court and do the rest. I hope we can do this and get back on track.

The reason for the income tax refund (of mostly lack there of) was because of my school loan. I was a little upset, but she was more so. Boy, did I hear it. She over reacted big time, as usual.

Sh!t

More crap to live with. Was expecting my income tax back and didn’t get what I was expecting. They took most of it and it went to an old school loan of mine. I guess I deserved that, but it would have been nice to know ahead of time so as not to expect the whole thing and only get not even 1/3^rd of it. I was little upset. We were going to pay on our car with that, and now we need to take stuff back…again… to try to make up what we need. We (well she mostly because it was her choice) decided not to put The Boy in daycare. Today he is acting up, not listening and such and she is getting frustrated. Well, I think she regrets not putting him in. We’ll get this shit worked out, but it’ll be a pain on the way.

More Work

I may be getting more programming work soon. I have clients like Quikonnex and Kommunity Kiosk. I am getting more from Quikonnex (whom I haven't heard from until this past weekend) and maybe from Kommunity Kiosk (who will kontact me tomorrow). Hopefully I'll get some more $$ coming in soon.

Weekend

The weekend didn’t go too bad. Most of the weekend the electrician (Scott) and his wife (?) and Son (Jessie) were working on the wiring in the stairwell. I don’t think they got it fixed because there are still uncovered wires in the halls. Logan had fun playing with Jessie, but most of the time since Jessie found out that I used to skate and I showed him a few tricks, he’s been wanting me to show him things. That’s not a bad thing, but I feel too old to do that. I was working on my computer trying to get ready for Vista that I will be getting soon. Logan and Melissa are going to the in home daycare that Logan will be starting on Monday. Melissa is looking forward to it, but because she’ll be home by herself. I’m looking forward to it because Logan will get more interaction with other kids.

A Little frustrated.

I just found out that the owners of the project that I am working on changed the site plan yet again. Not as bad as the other times, but still frustrating. Also, after doing the color rendering they did one themselves and my is getting tossed. That upsets me. I worked a lot and enjoyed making it. What ever.

 

Last night was ok, we had Taco Bell / Pizza hut for dinner. Forgot to watch Lost. L and didn’t record it. We’ll have to DL.

 

Melissa took her sleep aid and was not with it. She kept asking the same question every time she walked in the room even after I gave her an answer. She was talking like we still had Puss and Greys. She really wants a cat, but we cannot get one, and we already told Steve that we would not get one. She’s going to have a real problem with it for a while. That will be enough reason for her to want to move from here after a year.

rEFUND

Not getting as much as we thought back on the taxes. A mistake was made during the process that, when corrected, decreased the amount we were getting back. I was told that I could still get my item back. We’ll see if that happens. Would be nice. Other things are being talked about as well for my other half. Again, we’ll see what happens.

Silver Lining

Well, I may be able to get back my original item that I sold. We are getting a good bit back on our tax return (if it doesn’t go to my schooling) that I’ll be able to get it. Hopefully I can, if some of it goes to the Fed, then I’m sure I will not be able to get it and the rest will go to other things. I guess I do deserve it if that happens. Hopefully not though.

again.

Yep, again. I thought since I saved up the money I get for programming that it would be ok, well it wasn’t. Now I am being questioned weather I am not truthful to her. That was the first time I have ever kep something from her, and I wasn’t able to even keep it from her a whole day. I felt bad doing that, so I told her when I got home. Anyway, I don’t think I’ll ever get anything again. It’s just too much of a pain. Even if she “allows” me to get something, I don’t know if I will just because I’ll have to take it back within a few days anyway because of something.

Yuck!!!

I just saw a cockroach on our kitchen floor! On top of the broken window and the mice, this is the worst. I don't mind the mice that much, I HATE cockroaches!!!!

What now?

Well, I guess I messed up again. I cannot get anything right. I have no clue what’s going to happen tonight. I can’t really say more cause I don’t know if she reads this or not. I need to be able to get things off my chest, but I guess I can’t do that here and I have no one ese to talk to. I guess I’m fucked.

We are in!

We are all moved in to the new apartment! It is smaller than I thought, but we have things places and hung and it looks nice. There are a few issues. The heater in the living room doesn’t work, there is a window in our BR that is broken with only plastic in it’s place and we have mice. The heater was worked on last night. It was working for a little, but now back to nil. The window is to be replaced sometime today or tomorrow. And for the mice, well hopefully we can lose them. Other than those few things, I think I am going to like it there. We have high-speed internet, phone and cable. Kick ass.

We can move in!!!

I just got a call from Melissa saying that we can move in right now! Doesn’t help too much because I have to wait until I get home from work, but that is great news! We can move the bed tonight and officially be in the house and sleep there tonight. Very cool!

New item

 

Well, getting paid for programming is nice. I temporarily replaced the item I took back using the money I got for programming. It’s not anywhere near the quality that I want/need but it’ll work for now. Melissa doesn’t know that I got it. This is the first time I have gotten anything w/o telling her. I do feel kind of bad, but she’d have a fit if she knew. I’ll tell her sometime (or she’ll find out).

N64

Scott S. from here at work gave us his old N64! Very cool, it may be an old system, but we don’t have any system. This is going to be nice. I know it will cause a few melt downs (Logan and may be Melissa getting frustrated with Logan), but I think we will all enjoy it.

Getting screwed by PayPal

Looks like I’m getting screwed by PayPal now. Really pisses me off. I needed to change my info (address and phone) but I need to verify my location. They need to call me to make sure I’m here. Well if I don’t have that phone number anymore, how the hell are they going to be able to call? I tried calling them, but I was told I need to do it online. WTF!!! I use PayPal all the time for payments, and if I can’t access my money in the account, what the fuck am I supposed to do. I need to try to fix this tonight, and I better be able to!!!

 

I guess I might be taking it a little far, but I really miss it. I had a lot of info on it and used it every day. Really pisses me off that I had to take it back. I said that I was not going to take anything back anymore. Well…. I don’t see me ever being able to get it again. I know Melissa said that we can save up to get it again, but I don’t think it’ll happen.

Yet again...

Yes, it happened again. I needed to take something back. We needed about $210 to get the utilities hooked up in our new apartment. So I took something back to be able to meet that amount. I REALLY REALLY hate doing that. What I took back I used all the time and .... well, it's gone now. Maybe sometime in a few years I'll be able to get it back and keep it. We'll see.

Apartment

This is what the layout of the apartment looks like

 

Friday night wasn't too bad...

Friday night wasn't too bad, after dinner Melissa and I went to Giant
to sit and relax for a little while mom watched Logan. It was nice. We
watched that clip from the Jimmy Kimmel show with Sarah Silverman
where she said that she was fucking Matt Damon. Then watched the one
that JK said he was fucking Ben Afflick (sp). They were so funny! I
recommend doing a search on YouTube and watching them.

Logan did ok last night, he is played with his Leapster but every once
and a while makes loud noises or has to get up and jump. When we are
trying to sleep, that gets a little frustrating.

I just woke up, I slept good. I think Melissa snuck into the shower,
little stinker. That is what I was going to do.

After breakfast, I went down and did some work for Scott. I found a
solution to my problem, hopefully it'll work for him. My mom and dad
took Logan to the home and garden show at the York Expo Center. When
they got back Melissa and I took Logan to the treehouse so he could
play Gor a while then we went to Ollie's to look for stuff for the new
apt. We found mice carpet and some table and chairs. I think that it
will be a good place foe us to go to get things. It is good stuff
cheap. :-)

We rented a DVD the other night based on another guys opinion. It is
called "Gone Baby Gone" we didn't get a chance to watch but only a
few min of it. So far it seams good. I needed to take it back but I
was able to copy it so we will be able to watch it later.

I did charge Scott 1 hour for the work because i did have to make
another program to cover the toolbar of IE so I could make my own
controls. I feel bad for charging but A: I did make another program
and 2: we do need some extra cash because of moving.

Melissa got a little floppy with me because she thought I was going to
buy someting. She didn't let me finish my sentence before she got all
pissy. She does that very often. I do really hate when she does that.

The day after

It'll be interesting to see if my parents apologize for driving drunk
last night. I'm not really upset they got drunk, but that they drove.
Well, more my mom. She should have just stayed at Theresa's. They
don't work today so why risk it? My dad could have really hurt
himself, he might have some good marks this morning. And my mom, she
could have gotten them killed. Well that are ok but my mom better not
drink and drive again.

Work is going ok. I do have to redo some grading and add the
roundabout and keep part of the existing access off of Queen st. but
that isn't too bad.

Steve thought about letting us have a cat. We can either get new
carpet or get a cat. We are going to be able to see the apartment on
Monday or Tuesday. The we can make a choice to get the carpet or a
cat. I'm not sure what I'm leaning to. I am alergic but I really liked
having a cat, but hate having to use an inhailer. Need to think about
it more and see the existing carpet. If the carpet is bad then we will
just get carpet.

After I got home and had dinner (Melissa made she'll pasta) my dad
took me in other room and apologized for last night. That was nice and
expected, but I thought mom might do I too. She is the one that drove
home drunk.

Not fun

Tonight (will be last night) was not fun! First, after I got home we
left again and went to BK for dinner. Logan didn't do too bad there.
After that we went to Giant so Logan could play at the Treehouse.
Well, when we droped off Logan, Melissa asked if it was ok if we just
went to the cafe to sit. Well that wasn't a good thing to do. I knew
that they wouldnt allow that. The girl said that we needed to buy
someting, that is what it is for. So now we can't do that anymore. At
least I can go in the mornings before work and will have wi-fi at home
when we move. Next, we are allowed to pick out carpet for our
apartment. So we went to Lowes to look for carpet and wall paper
border. Well, it started out ok then Logan started grabbing things and
not listening. We needed to find one that we thought would work and
cheap enough not to raise the rent too high. So I was trying to keep
him occupied while melissa was talking to a guy and Steve on the
phone. So after that, we went to see Steve to get a floor plan (which
I wish he would have given us a while ago). Logan was not being good.
He was touching everything. There was a web camera that was on a tv he
was trying to get to. Steve gave him some chips to try to keep him
occupied. That only worked for a few min. I ended up trying to hold
him but he just kept moving around and trying to get down. We left and
came back to my parents. I wanted to do some work for Scott but I
wasn't able to because of Logan not listening. I ended up just copying
what I need to my USB drive so I can work on it tomorrow. I hope I can
get it finished soon so I can sent it to scott.

Well, my parents went out to my sisters for their birthday and got
smashed. I got a call from Liz saying that they were intoxicated and
that they were driving home. They were coming from Columbia PA which
is about 30 min. away. They made it home ok (my mom drove thankfully)
but my dad didn't make it to the front door. He fell a few times first
then fell trying to get in the door. I went out and had to help him up
and through the door. We got in after a few tries and I got him the
the couch. My mom wasn't as bad but still drunk. My dad then gets up
and tries to go up to their room. If I would not have helped him, he
wouldnt have made it and would have fell down the stairs. I do
remember he did this before when ibwaa little but he was usually in a
bad mood too. It was strange helping my parents when they are drunk.

The evening

Tonight (will be last night by the time I post this) Melissa had a
small breakdown. Logan was getting to her again and she let it happen.
She needs to act the way we did the other night, keep cool and keep
him in time out as long as needed and just put up with the fit until
he stops.

Well, its 10:36am and I got my first call from melissa. She I'd taking
logan outside. He started already. He got some toys out and she asked
him to pick and he refused to. She have to ask him to do it again
later. I plan on taking him to the treehouse tonight. We are going to
go to BK for dinner first. I started to really like their chicken club
sandwich.

I am in an insurance meeting at work, this will be interesting. It is
from 11:30am to 1:30pm, need to stay awake. :-)

The meeting went fine. We had pizza from Latuka's (sp), it was very
good. I have had it before a long time ago. When we get moved I'm we
will have to order from there.

I called melissa to ask/tell her that I added her and Logan to my
vision insurance, well she wasn't doing very good. Logan wasn't being
good so she was getting more stressed and upset. She keeps saying that
she can't do this anymore. We plan on putting Logan in daycare at the
end of march, but that is a month away. Hopefully things will get
better when we move.

Something that I am not looking forward to is going home to Melissa
upset with Logan and Logan not listening. I shouldn't have to think
about that, I don't feel right thinking that, but it is almost every
night that there is something wrong with Melissa or Logan. It is
really stressful and even more so after work. I work on tight
deadlines and hard clients, coming home to that isn't fun.

Tonight isn't bad, let's hope it stays that way.

Pus and Gray

These were our cats on AZ. We had to give them away before we left. We
miss them a lot.

Missing AZ

Missing AZ

Sum up...

Sum up...

Since I'm going back to bloging, I need to sum up what has taken place
since the last entry. We have moved back to PA. We dropped everything
and just left. There are a few people that I wish I was able to say
"by" to but that didn't happen. We got back to PA in Nov. of 2007. We
are staying at my parents for now but are moving into our own place in
about a week (first weekend in March).

Melissa admitted herself to the York Hospital on Feb 18 because of
having a breakdown. Turns out she has Borderline Personality Disorder
as well as depression and anxiety. She was discharged on Feb 21. She
is doing a little better but still needs work.

We are hoping to get Logan into an in home daycare soon. It may have
to wait until the end of March, hopefully we can get him in sooner.

We need a few things for the apt like a TV, curtins, microwave etc.
Mark C. is going to see if they can give us one of there TVs, they
have 3 of them. That would be very nice.

Last time I called home, Logan wasn't doing so well. He was not
listening and running away from Melissa. I hope that he has calmed
down and has not been in time out all this time. We are going to go to
BK for dinner. I really shouldn't be doing this because it is gas
money, but I should be ok because we are not going anywhere this
weekend, well we are going to get the mail but that not too far. I do
need to get transmission fluid for the car, need to remember to do
that tonight.

Back to Blog

I'm trying a new way to keep a journal. I am entering them in my email
and sending them to my blog. We'll see how that works for a while.

I joined the NASCAR pool at work and this past race one of my picks
one the race. Carl Edwards won the Daytona 500. Let's hope my guys
keep up the winning!

Quote by Mark Conway, "Most of my good times involve a hotdog. "

Hopefully this will not happen, but i may have to take back something.
We need more cash to get our utilities hooked up for our new apt. We
need about $200 more. I am trying to find another way, but it may have
to come to taking this back.... I really REALLY hope not. I have taken
a lot of things back before or sold. I pray that the Goddess will
help me/us through this.